After talking to my mum just generally, she literally said that at the age I am now, I cannot experience love, but more importantly I cannot have deep thoughts.
Erm hello. All I have Is deep thoughts. I would benefit greatly from NOT having deep thoughts.
My intelligence feels insulted.
It's quite contradictory to tell somebody to dream, to be whatever they want to be, and then just take it all away, as my view and thoughts aren't true (being a silly teenager and all).
I sometimes wonder if adults have just forgotten what it's like to be a teenager. To have the world at your feet and a dream in your pocket. Sure in a few years I'll laugh at how grown up I thought I was, but right now in this moment, I am present Beth. And present Beth is only really aware of herself at the moment. And this being the oldest she's ever felt, feels pretty old.
Isn't it strange that the age your at now, as in right this very second, is the oldest you have ever been up until this point.
My god if that's not deep what is. I JUST CAN'T HELP MYSELF. I am deep. Weirdly deep. Not even good insightful deep, honestly just plain strange.
Whatever. I believe my life matters and that my thoughts are valid. Then again, the fact we all think this is perhaps why we have things like crime and holocausts...oh gosh did I just deeply think again? The horror.
Maybe all teenagers should write a letter to their future selfs, reminding them what it feels like to be young. I personally think this is an excellent idea. This can substitute as my letter to my future self entitled "why teenagers are people too".
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